Oh What Will I Do?

Panic jolts through my entire body like an explosion of energy. I can’t bare the thought of being without it, yet I may not have a choice for awhile. Oh my, what will I do…?

Okay, you may be wondering, “What in the world are you talking about?” Well, about a year and a half ago, I began taking these supplements that are the most advanced form of cellular technology. I have never taken any kind before and sadly to say, my diet growing up was quite poor.  I mean, we are talking about Ramen Noodles, pizza, all kinds of pastas, etc. I was… and still am, a STARTCH FANATIC!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not to mention, I only drank soft drinks and VERY sweet tea. I couldn’t stand the blandness of water and flavored water turned my stomach. It is amazing that I wasn’t as big as a house, luckily, matabolism is good in my family… until you get pregnant anyway. My family doesn’t get fat, just fluffy.

Anyway, I know a lot of people think health nuts are crazy… but I have really noticed a difference from taking these supplements. I use to get so sick if someone sneezed or coughed across the store (as big as Wal-Mart) and if there was rain anywhere in the state, I would get allergies.

I tell you what though, after taking this for a few months… my niece could vomit on me and I wouldn’t get sick and allergies are a total thing of the past.

Well, I am right now, drinking the last of it. I won’t have the money to purchase any more for a few weeks… so I am freaking! I have gone without it before for a few weeks, and boy can I tell a difference! So, here I sit, hoping my body will utilize every soluable cellular bit that entered with each swallow. My thoughts, willing my body to hold on to it as long as possible as though starvation could kick in any moment. Right now, I envy the camel.

Through the Eye of the Beholder

Looking into the eyes of someone else’s vision of the world causes a deep introspection and a trance of unparalleled focus. I am captivated more by black and white photographs because of the stillness of life that they portray. There is something to be said about the dream state that a b&w picture brings me to and the imagination it encourages. Here is an example: “Rose and Driftwood”

Photograph: By Ansel Adams 1932

 This photograph above, is one of my favorites of his. Quite a few years ago, a friend of mine found out that I loved black and white photographs, so he gave me a book, “Ansel Adams: Classic Images”. Sometimes I wish it wasn’t in a book so that I could put it in a frame. I know I could go out and purchase a copy, like a poster, but I haven’t. The following picture, is called “Trailer Camp Children”, it really moved me. It just makes you want to reach out and hold them.

Photograph: By Ansel Adams 1944

In a b&w photograph, expressions and emotions come through much deeper than in a color photo. Sometimes, I feel as though it is like capturing a ghost on film… you wouldn’t be aware you were capturing it until you developed it… and there it is.

Well, I tried to upload more pictures from my camera, but for some reason it is not allowing me to. Once I figure out what the problem is, I will upload them and post them. I would love for you to see some of the other pictures that I think are fascinating.